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Saying Goodbye Is Never Easy

Back in early 2000 I wrote a short story that I knew would be big. It was, I liked to think, my New Yorker story. It was called "New Avalon" and was basically about how Princess Diana faked her own death and was living secretly with Dodi Fayed in a small town in northern Pennsylvania. The reason for her faking her death was because she had cancer and didn't want the world to watch her die a slow and painful death. The story would be narrated by a young man who had abandoned his old life to become Diana's personally bodyguard and driver. In fact, the story itself wasn't so much about Diana as a plot device to focus on this other character and everything he had to give up. The story was originally written in first person, but there was something off about the narrator I couldn't put my finger on. Then I had the idea to try it in the second person -- you know how I love a good second person narration -- and bingo, it worked perfectly.

But there was still something missing. The story read okay, but it still felt incomplete.

By that time I had signed with my first agent and, after trying to sell a thriller, I told him I had a literary novel. I'd expanded the short story into a 50,000-word novel. The novel was broken up into twelve parts; each section took place during a month of the year, starting with January and ending with December. The story would be set ten years after Diana's "death" and how the cancer that had regressed was starting to come back and the narrator begins to live life again. It was, in many ways, a love story and dealt with the idea of destiny and free will.

My agent loved it and we went out with it, knowing it was going to be a tough sell because of the second person (though I had flashbacks between each section in the third person which, in retrospect, slowed the novel's pace and could have done without). As usual, there were a few nibbles from some major publishers, but no bites. And so, like usual, the novel was set aside to "maybe come back to someday."

Stewart O'Nan -- who's excellent novel A Prayer for the Dying is written in the second person and was really an inspiration for my own novel -- had read an early draft of New Avalon and encouraged me to keep at it. The thing was, at the time, there really was no need to keep at it. I could revise, but so what? My agent had submitted it to publishers. You only get one shot. So then set aside it went.

Until many months ago when I saw an article somewhere online about a woman who had written a novel about Princess Diana faking her own death and living under an assumed identity in America.

And, as you can imagine, I immediately thought: WTF?

But at the time, I wasn't ready yet to start self-publishing. That came only a little later, but by then I was more concerned with getting The Calling and The Dishonored Dead out there. They were, after all, ready to go for the most part, just needed some tidying up. In the back of my mind, I knew that New Avalon would be a possibility but that I would have to give it a major revision. My goal was to get it out before the other book came out. I knew the plots were somewhat similar, so it was imperative that I got mine out first. Granted, the second person would scare a few readers off -- which is a shame really, because second person can be so great -- but I was fine with that.

Unfortunately, the other Diana book came out much quicker than I had anticipated. Obviously I hadn't done my research well enough, but I had assumed it would be later this year. In fact, my plan was to dive into the revision of New Avalon in the next week or so, try to have it ready by September if all went well.

But then this past Saturday I saw this.

And I immediately thought: Shit.

The review itself of Monica Ali's novel Untold Story (a pretty crappy title if you ask me) isn't very good. In fact, the review even says, "Unfortunately, the premise is the best part Untold Story."

Yes, the premise is pretty excellent, isn't it?

Oh well.

After sending a frustrated email to Stewart O'Nan to get his opinion on what he thought I should do -- would it still be worth trying to publish this thing now that the other book was out? -- I dug around and found the early draft of the novel I had sent O'Nan back years and years ago. He had marked it up with notes. I paged through the manuscript. And I thought, for a moment, it might be possible to do a quick cleaning up of the novel and just post it as is.

The thought was only there for a moment, and then gone.

Because I knew better.

Had I done that, the novel would be an okay novel, but not a great novel.

And a great novel is obviously what I'd want to publish.

Like I said before: just because you can, doesn't necessarily mean you should.

So New Avalon? I have no choice but to say goodbye. Which sucks, because a lot of work went into the novel, but that's okay because it was a learning experience. I am the writer I am now because I had once written it. And it's for the best too, really, at least from a marketing standpoint, as the readership I'm starting to build leans more toward thrillers, and throwing a literary novel into the mix this soon into my "career" could be jilting for some.

But don't worry -- I plan (hope) to publish a novel in the second person one of these days.

Until then, you can always enjoy an excerpt from New Avalon which I posted a few months back.

Another Big No-No

Remember awhile back that woman who had a mental breakdown in the comments section of a book review blog because the review in question didn't care for her book but she was convinced otherwise that her book was amazing, and then the whole thing went viral and the review got over one hundred comments and the book itself got dozens and dozens of one-star ratings, probably forcing the writer in question to maybe overdose? Yeah, well, that little hoopla was one of those "writerly lessons" on what a writer should never ever do. Because it is bad show for writers to respond to bad reviews. Sure, the reviewer may not always get what you meant, but that's beside the point. It's just a part of being a writer. It's just a little thing called professionalism.

But then you have writers who feel the need, time and again, to respond to reviews. There's even one author who probably Googles his name every half hour -- so if you're the writer in question, welcome to my blog! -- who constantly responds to one-star reviews of his novels on Amazon (he responds to other reviews, too, even five-star reviews, but those aren't as entertaining). And, I mean, come on -- they're Amazon reviews, for pete's sake! They're certainly not the end all be all. But whatever. I heard awhile ago that this writer constantly responded to one-star reviews, but I didn't believe it until I saw it for myself. Sometimes, when I'm bored, I go looking for more one-star reviews and the comments that follow just for a good chuckle.

Anyway, the writer's name is Noel Hynd and he writes a lot of "Christian fiction," which basically means that most of his books are published by a Christian publisher and so hence he is given that title. I'm not even going to show you the reviews in question, but the comments instead.

For a review titled "An Embarassment to Everyone Who Writes and Reads English," this is the author's response:

So, uh, you're saying that you didn't care for it?

Someone else comments:

Thanks for saving me the effort of writing a review. I actually stuck it out till the bitter end and would like those hours of my life back.

And then the author again:

For an author, reviews like these and the comments above are among the most perplexing part of one's profession. What works for some readers, fails miserably with others. I realize that it's often a matter of taste, what sort of mood the reader was in, how much he/she spent...whatever. I seem to be very popular among the people who like me but the people who don't would like to see me killed with a sharp stick. In fact, they seem ready to provide the sharp stick. Go figure. Curiously, so far on this book here are 26 reviews. None are 3's. There are more 5's than anything else, and several of the 1's seem to be agenda driven. Fascinating. Despite the nasty vibes, thanks to BH and CS for taking the time to post. CS, sorry, but I can't return your time to you. Better luck with the next book you read. BH, I'm from New York too. Want to meet under the Williamsburgh Bridge some night on the Manhattan side and duke it out? ;-)

In another review titled "Don't Bother - Poorly Written and Not Tagged Correctly," (apparently readers are upset that the novel doesn't scream "Christian fiction" on the cover), the author responds with:

Completely untrue. I took no digs at anyone or anyone's beliefs. Certain characters did, certain passages are in the POV of certain characters. You frankly just didn't read very carefully. As for the history, it's necessary to the story. Are you an expert on Ukraine from the 1930's to 2010? Most people aren't, including myself. But it's impossible to understand the current story and current events w/o understanding what happened in the 1930's and what, for example, the 'Orange Revolution' was all about. Like many people here, you admit that you awarded one star without finishing the book and more as a rating of the publisher than the author. That's your privilege, just as it's my privilege to respond to your comments. Aside from that, I love you very much.

And then there is someone back and forth between the reader and the author.

Another one-star review titled "Absolute Dreck," the review is very short and sweet:

Filled to the brim with non-stop typos, grammatical errors, plot lines that go nowhere and overt christian prostelization. I can't beleive I paid for this!

And the author's response:

No profile, no other reviews by this 'reader', no examples given, and at odds with 45 other readers who gave this book 4 or 5 stars. One wonders.....

And then another one in which the review says:

I rarely give up on a book. I got to Chapter 49, still waiting to become interested in the book, and finally decided I was just too bored with the book to continue.

And the author says:

Tell you what, Gary. I'll come over to your place and read the back half to you. How's that?

You get the idea. It goes on and on. In fact, there's one definitely worth checking out (one of the author's earlier comments, I suppose), because he starts his rebuttal off with this:

I don't normally reply to comments on books I've written since everyone is entitled to his or her opinion.

Uh-huh. That was back in April 2009. But wait! The author doesn't make snide remarks to everyone. He even says so here in here:

Just to even things out, I didn't finish reading your review......Actually, I was just about to click off and I saw you yelling at me, "UNPROFESSIONAL UNCALLED FOR AND OBNOXIOUS!" so that got my attention. I don't make a "snide" remark to everyone. I don't even make one to everyone who has made one to me. Reader reviews here are like reader mail. So I answer it. I used to be published by The Dial Press back when they published Robert Ludlum. I knew Mr. Ludlum fairly well. He always answered all reader mail as far as I know, good or bad, even the wacko stuff (and believe me, he got plenty) and advised other writers to do the same. So I do. If you prowl through all these notes, you'll see that I've put gracious notes of thanks on some pretty awful reviews. What can I say to someone who didn't one of my books? "Thanks, I hope you get hit by a truck." (That's a joke, Kim.) So I try to keep it amusing, at least. Reading is entertainment, so is this section of give and take. Most people take these reviews and responses with a grain of salt. I feel that anyone who has taken the time to post a review merits a response. You disagree?

Yes, in fact, I do disagree. A writer without readers is a very sad writer indeed. And a writer who constantly pulls these kind of shenanigans? That writer is just begging to lose more and more readers.

"My Books May Not Be Great Literature, But They Certainly Don't Suck"

Just because you can, doesn't necessarily mean you should. This is an important reminder for pretty much anything, but it definitely applies to self-publishing.

Sure, self-publishing your novel is very easy nowadays, but should you? If you have a novel and you've queried one hundred agents and didn't hear back from a single one, then you need to ask yourself what it is about the novel that isn't getting attention. Because if it doesn't grab the attention of at least one out of one hundred agents, then chances are it probably won't grab many readers.

But wait! someone in the back of the audience shouts. Agents don't know anything anymore!

Do you really believe that? Sure, they're not all amazing. Some are so-so. Some even suck. But their job is to find books that they think they can sell to publishers.

But wait! someone else in the back shouts. You don't need publishers anymore!

This is true. You don't need both kidneys, either, but it's ideal to have both. I'm not saying publishers are needed anymore, but it seems the current trend is to completely buck the system and just self-publish. And, honestly, self-publishing makes more and more sense. Sure, there's still that stigma, but the stigma seems to be mostly with other writers. Writers are, for the most part, egotistical beings. We want to be accepted by readers, yes, but also by our peers. It is, in many ways, a literary circle jerk.

Me, I don't really care to participate. This shouldn't be surprising to regular readers of this blog. I'm not seeking acceptance from my peers and other writers so much as a solid continuous readership from ... well, readers.

Awhile ago, I was talking to a writer friend of mine about self-publishing a certain manuscript, and this friend said, "Why would you want to do that? You're a good enough writer you don't need to self-publish."

And that's the thing, isn't it? Self-publishing is no longer a writer's very last option. In fact, if the writer is smart enough, they might consider it first and foremost. Sure, you might miss out on that instant gratification of a book deal, or you might lose some of the respect of your peers, or you might not be nominated for awards, but so what?

Then again, just because you can, doesn't necessarily mean you should.

Just because you have a novel on your hard drive that you were never able to sell, doesn't mean you should throw it up on Kindle and cross your fingers. You are, after all, a brand, and your novel is a product. If readers find your product and aren't impressed, they'll remember the brand, and they'll probably never try one of your products again. This is why you need to make sure that if you do self-publish, you're doing it with your very best.

Don't get me wrong -- editors are nice, but no editor is the same. The suggestions editor A would give you on your novel might be completely different from what editor B would give you. And editor C? Editor C will give it a read-through, might cross a few things out or circle a few words, and then pat you on the back and send you on your way.

For the novels I've self-published so far -- The Calling, The Dishonored Dead, and just recently The Serial Killer's Wife -- I know that they're good. I know that they're clean. They've been vetted by agents. Major publishing editors have seen the manuscripts (except SKW; I decided to simply bypass the publishers on that one). Many, in fact, liked the books. Ultimately, though, it always came down to a question of "just not being right" at that moment in time.

As I've said before, publishing is a mixture of talent and luck. The one you have control over, the other you don't.

And as I've said before, no two writers are the same. What works for one writer probably won't work for another. So if one writer sells one million e-books ...

As you've probably already heard, yesterday John Locke sold his one millionth Kindle e-book. It's quite an impressive feat, especially since he's only published nine books and just started publishing them two years ago. He is, in a way, the James Patterson of self-publishing.

And he just sold over one million Kindle e-books.

Good for him.

Seriously, I mean it. I don't begrudge anyone his or her success, no matter how big or small. I do, however, take issue when someone uses their massive success to sucker other people out of their time and money.

Because on the heels of John Locke selling one million Kindle e-books comes this new e-book of his:

Yes, that's right: How I Sold 1 Million eBooks In 5 Months! ... which is an interesting title, considering the man has been selling his e-books since 2009, but whatever the case. Anyway, when I saw this new e-book I thought, Okay, makes sense, I guess, try to cash in while you can. But then I saw the digital list price and it made me go, What the what?

$4.99.

If you're at all familiar with John Locke, he has branded himself as the 99 cent novelist. Which means he only makes 35 cents on every e-book sold, but still, sell a million e-books and that's no chump change. But yet, a 99 cent novelist, you'd think that his ... well, get-rich-quick e-book would be priced accordingly. Nope. Even $2.99 would be somewhat reasonable, though from what I understand the actual book isn't very long at all. In fact, I was just curious enough to download the sample and see what all the fuss is about (no surprise that the e-book has already made it into the top 100 of the paid Kindle store). Here are some actual passages from the e-book:

The phrase "vanity publishing" was almost certainly invented by traditional publishers years ago in order to squash the competition from entrepreneurial authors.

It worked.

By ridiculing and publicly shaming self-published authors for daring to invest in their own talents and abilities, publishing houses were able to elevate themselves to god-like status. What they're saying, when an author believes in his abilities to the extent he's willing to invest his own money to publish a novel, he's writing purely for his vanity!

I have to give credit to the geniuses that came up with this hogwash, because publishing is the only business in the world that has managed to make such a ridiculous notion seem plausible.

Note that there's only one exclamation point in that section. Just note it, because there's many more ...

When you look at what's available [in the Kindle store], you'll find lots of choices, including free books and famous authors, whose titles generally run $9.95 to $14.95. You'll also find John Locke novels for 99 cents. The famous authors' current books are your first choice, of course, so you'll want to get several of those.

But how many can you afford?

After you've downloaded several, and realize you've spent $40 or more, you're still hungry for content, and this is where I come in! You look at a $9.95 book with 138 reviews, 60% positive, and you look at John Locke's 99 cent book with 138 reviews and 80% positive. You see John Locke has nine books available and you calculate you could buy all nine for less than one of the famous author's books!

You think, "I could buy five John Locke novels and a moche latte for less than one famous author's book!" You read the "about the author" section and learn that every book John Locke has written became a best seller, and he is also, in fact, a New York Times best-selling author.

You figure, "What the heck. I'll give John a try. I've never heard of him, and he probably sucks, but hey, it's only 99 cents." -- And that's the moment I turn the tables on the famous authors, because first, my books may not be great literature, but they certainly don't suck. Second, there's no way in the world the famous authors can afford to price their books for 99 cents, because their publishers would lose a fortune!

As I've been telling people for more than a year, when famous authors are forced to sell their books for $9.95, and I can sell mine for 99 cents, I no longer have to prove my books are as good as theirs. Now the famous authors have to prove their books are ten times better than mine! -- And in a game like that, I like my chances!

The sample sort of fizzles out after that, but you get the idea. In fact, I actually don't even feel like I need to comment further. I'll just end with what I started with:

Just because you can, doesn't necessarily mean you should.

And if you do, make sure it's your very best.

Okay, now that our seminar is over, you can PayPal me $4.99 at your quickest convenience ...

Validation Organization

Earlier today Joe Konrath blogged his thoughts about the Mystery Writers of America's change in their submission guidelines, allowing active membership to e-book and print on demand authors ... authors who are published by an actual publisher and provides that content as an e-book or POD book, not authors who self-publish themselves. Of course, a lot of authors are up in arms, while others are simply shrugging it off.

The post itself is interesting -- at least to me, as I've never been a member of any writers organization -- because it gives some insight into the MWA and how, ultimately, they seem to be an organization that is supposed to exist to support writers but instead exists simply to sustain itself.

The MWA isn't the only organization like this, of course, but that's beside the point.

What's the reason to join a writers organization? It is simply for the validation and the warm, fuzzy feeling of being accepted? I know, years and years ago, writers busted their butts to sell so many stories at 3 cents a word to become an "active" member in the Horror Writers Association. 3 cents a word, at that time, was considered professional rates. Now, I believe, it's up to 7 cents a word. And say you do become an "active" member, then what? It basically allows you to vote for the HWA's award, which members can vote for even if they haven't read any of the novels or stories nominated. Beyond that? I'm not totally sure.

Of course, Nick Mamatas brought up a good point on Twitter, how some organizations like MWA exist to advocate for writers against publishers. So if a publisher is screwing over one of the members, the organization, in theory, will step in and help out.

So if you're a writer with no publisher, then there's no need for advocacy, which then begs the question in this day and age as more and more writers are beginning to self-publish: what's the use for some of these writers organizations besides, maybe, that warm and fuzzy feeling of validation?

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I'm plan on seeing Super 8 tomorrow. As you can imagine, I'm super psyched.